in this heat

(august 2020)

when i was a very young child
i said
when i am older i will be a boy
because they have it so easy
all they have to worry about is shaving their beards

i am no longer a child
(sort of)
and i am neither boy nor girl
but i still observe ,,boys” having it easy
biking with the sun on their bare, topless skin
while i suffer the heat in my tshirts
wishing i could feel the rare breeze on my bare nipples
without getting harassed